Great figures who went through “Not knowing who I am”

You don't know what you want or who you are. Read the life stories of 2 Japanese historical figures who went through something similar.
Figures who went through this
- Mori Ogai — The Man Who Wanted to Be Taken Seriously
A twenty-four-year-old army doctor turned down a dance at a masked ball: "I am a foreigner. I cannot dance." Two and a half years later, a woman followed him from Germany to Japan. The story of a man who got truly angry about how others saw him, and who in the end turned down every title.
- Murasaki Shikibu — The Woman Who Wouldn't Write Even "One"
"I do not even write the character for 'one.'" The woman who wrote that also wrote a very long story. Her father sighed over her, the court gossiped about her, and in the end she put everything she had hidden into one letter and asked: "When you have read it, please send it right back." This is her story.